Being transgender sucks. I have been made better for having gone through as much of the transition as I have, but much of that growth was only after being thrown to the floor. Why does it suck? Societal conflicts aside, there are countless painful experiences I must endure while on the pursuit to becoming whole. Most recently, I laid bare on a table while two women I had just met spent hours performing electrolysis on my crotch.
Getting a vaginoplasty is one of the largest remaining steps for me to become the woman I am meant to be. I knew it would be one of the the most difficult and significant challenges I would face in my life, which is why I was somewhat reluctant to start pursuing it. This surgery requires a perfect orchestration of time, money, and mental fortitude. My surgery date should be determined within the next couple weeks, but a solid six months of painful preparation remain. I did not realize how much I would have to go through before the surgery itself. In my mind, the operation and the immediate recovery was going to be the most difficult part of it all… then I actually committed to the journey.
Transgender Unfiltered 